I’ve worked from a home office for most of my life. I’ve done bookwork for the farm and design work from home ever since I’ve been married. This stay at home order didn’t have much of a direct effect on my life. I go out to feed the horses twice a day and I go for horse feed and I’m trying to limit myself to groceries once a week preferably on the same day.
Even before this, there were days when my Jeep didn’t leave the garage. It is interesting how having a stay at home order can change one’s mental state.
About two weeks ago my hip started hurting. Hip pain is nothing new to me but recently I haven’t been as bothered by it. This was different. It worked itself down my leg to my knee and I could barely walk.
I went to see the chiropractor and that helped a little. So, I asked my massage therapist if I could schedule with her as soon as some of the restrictions were lifted.
I’ve since had that massage. We talked about how it seemed to appear after one of her virtual yoga classes. The class wasn’t a particularly hard one and I don’t remember doing anything that hurt. I must have done something wrong and pulled something.
We talked about the things that have been on my mind for the last few weeks. How my colleagues and complete strangers were getting messages from Mike. My dad’s health issues that had recently been found. The stress of having my computer crashing every few minutes and having to troubleshoot that myself.
Not a sight you want to see.
She reminded me that I carry a lot of emotions in my hips. This is something I’ve researched before, so it was not a revelation to me. I have done a little more research and found two sources that stated the hips are like our emotional junk drawer. She gave me some exercises to do and home I went.
That was Wednesday. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I spent my time troubleshooting my computer problems. I hardly moved. Then when I needed a USB drive to download Windows on so I could reload it I had to go out and get one.
It was late in the afternoon so while I was in Colby, I picked up dinner for John and myself. I then decided that I was done troubleshooting the computer for the day and I was going to watch something on TV and chill.
By the time I got downstairs and decided that I would watch The Bridges of Madison County it was later than I would have liked to start a movie that was that long. I’ve always wanted to watch it but had two young boys when it came out and never got around to it.
Close to the end of the movie when Francesca is caring for her husband near the end of his life, he says to her that he knows that her life wasn’t what she had expected. Movies don’t usually make me cry. This one did
I went to bed because it was later than I wanted to be up that night and didn’t think any more about it. The first thought I had when I awoke the next morning was that my hip hadn’t woken me up during the night. Most of the pain was gone.
Follow your heart they say… Mine always leads me to the Barn!
Yes, I had done the exercises every day and I’m sure they helped but that bit of emotional relief that I got from the movie helped immensely. I had been taking all those emotional messages that I’d been getting and stuffing them into my hips. I also had not been listening to my colleagues when they told me to go work it out with the horses.
I had messages all around me that I was ignoring. If you’d like to discuss how the horses and I can help you release emotional pain connect with me here.
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