As I sit in the garden and listen to the birds singing, I am content. Nature has a way of repairing the wounds we receive if we’ll let it.
I am a survivor. I’ve survived breast cancer. I’ve survived caregiving and the loss of my husband at an early age.
Being resilient can be exhausting. When I was caregiving for my husband, I remember feeling so tired of being strong for everyone in my family. Then when my dad died, I remember feeling exhausted even thinking that I would have to be strong for everyone in town as well as my family.
I know I’m resilient. That I can bounce back from whatever life brings my way. Now my goal is to measure my life, not in resilience. I want to measure my life in peace, joy, and ease.
I want to absorb all the love and compassion that is given to me by others. To feel their strength supporting me. To grow and thrive.
In the past, I’ve felt like I go from crisis to crisis. Being resilient and surviving it all. I’ve been called an inspiration. Now all I want is calm. No more crises. No more chaos.
My overall vision is driven by my values. Values of connection, authenticity, and creativity feed my soul and lead my life. They help me gain peace, joy, and ease. To stay in the flow of life.
Follow your heart they say… Mine always leads me to the Barn!
When I am wanting to stay out of feeling overwhelmed and out of crisis mode. I can do this by remembering I have connections to many strong people that I can rely on to help me through. I can stay out of overwhelm by being creative, sitting down and editing photos, designing a piece of metalwork, or perhaps a product that uses one of my photos or designs. I can do this by going out and being my authentic self with the horses.
Sometimes I feel like I’m being judged by people. That I can’t be my authentic self, or they won’t like me. When what I’d like to remember is that when I’m authentic I will attract the people who are meant to be in my life.
When I’m being creative, I often look at what others will think and hope for praise. At these times I’d like to remember that when I stay in the moment and don’t worry about what others will like I’m at my most creative and my photographs and designs flow through me.
Most importantly when I need someone to support me, I have a whole herd of people that I trust. They will not judge me. They love me unconditionally. And when that doesn’t help or when no one is available I can go out and be with my horses. They have always understood. They have always held space for me when I needed it.
Do you have a struggle that you need help with? Come out and let my healing herd do their magic. You won’t regret it.
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Onward!
