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Recently I was having some resistance to doing something. About a week after I had reluctantly done it, I figured out why. I was feeling shame.

Not that I was feeling shame about doing it but feeling shamed into doing it. I consciously did not want to do it but felt that I would feel shame if I didn’t. So instead of standing up for my reasons not to do this, I caved in.

This is a different type of shame than we feel when we keep something a secret. However, keeping it a secret is part of this since I didn’t stand up and stay true to myself.

Shame is the most powerful, master emotion. It’s the fear that we’re not good enough. BrenĆ© Brown

This is about a feeling of being judged by others if I did speak up or just didn’t do it.

Why did I feel such shame around this? It was what everyone else was doing. I had an objection to it but wanted to fit in. I wasn’t strong enough to stand up for what I believed in, so I complied because I didn’t want to feel like the others were being judgmental about my not doing it.

It all goes back to feeling like I don’t fit in. (Funny I didn’t realize I had talked about BrenĆ© Brown in this prior post until I checked the link.) Like there’s lack in my life, that I’m not enough.

This can show up as resistance to do something. I feel shame around my procrastination sometimes. This or that should be done but then I get distracted by something else, busy work or research.

Hey, that’s why this post is a day late. I was doing research around the topic. Really, I was just having trouble sitting down to write it.

I remember a time several years ago when I felt a coach was shaming John into doing something that he felt he couldn’t do. I was furious, my mama bear came out. I didn’t really step in and the issue was resolved between the coach and John. But I must admit I lost some respect for that coach that day.

We see shaming all the time even down to shaming our pets. I try not to do this, but I’ll admit I’m sure I have.

My fear that I’m not good enough will rear its ugly head and the shame will set in. So, to stay out of shame I will have the horses help me set an intention and set up some ways to stay out of shame.

How does shame show up for you?

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Shame On The Moon.

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Susan is a lifelong horsewoman, a Master Equine Gestaltist, an Equine Assisted PlayShop facilitator, a breast cancer survivor, a reluctant caregiver, a photographer, and a metal artist. She has a BA in Communications and works with doctors, caregivers, and patients through the Equine Gestalt Coaching MethodĀ®.