I’m leaving with John for Hawaii tomorrow, and I have a huge project that I wanted to finish part of and get to the next person. As I worked on it over the weekend, and basically nothing else, I decided Sunday night that I wasn’t going to be able to complete it. I might be able to if I do nothing except work on it and stay up late. Then I’d be starting a vacation being exhausted and I don’t want to do that.
When I was younger, I did that often. I’d stay up late finishing something and get almost no sleep. I’ve discovered since then that it’s a lot easier on my body to disrupt my sleep pattern as little as possible. I guess this is the wisdom we get with age.
It’s my procrastination that gets me in these spots.
Procrastination has gotten me into this mess it’s not going to get me out of it. Still, I find myself scrolling FaceBook or Instagram, playing games, responding to the pinging of my phone, or not setting boundaries with people around the time I have to spend with them.
Boundaries have always been a problem with me. I don’t want to have a confrontation. Especially with family. I want things to go along smoothly.
That’s not how last week went. I was called for jury duty and chosen. After my first day as a juror, I was mentally exhausted and had a blog post and email that I wanted to complete because they anticipated jury duty would take three days. I knew I wouldn’t have time to do it on Tuesday when I normally did.
My son came over to get something after work which this night was 9:00. He wanted to chat. I let him and then told him to go back home to see his family. He called almost as soon as he’d left to tell me how he thought something in my life should go and I handled the conversation poorly, it escalated, and he hung up on me.
I’ve learned that it does nothing in these situations with him to try to explain my point of view to him. He won’t listen. So, I finished what I was doing and went to bed.
On Tuesday afternoon I got a text from him. As jurors, we couldn’t have our phones on or use them in any way. So, I didn’t see it until I got home when I responded in a gentle way.
Today I need to talk with him about a few things before I leave and I’m hesitant. How will he respond? Will he get angry and refuse? So, I’m procrastinating, again.
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Sometimes I don’t want to work or play I just want to Bang The Drum All Day.
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