by Susan | Apr 26, 2022 | Awareness, Horses
The barking disrupts my sleep. Is it the neighborhood dogs or something else that has her on her toes? I’ve had Dalila for just over three years now. She’s a cross between a Border Collie and an Australian Shepard and she has a lot of energy. She is also very...
by Susan | Apr 19, 2022 | Awareness, Horses
Sometimes I lose trust in myself. I know I can do something, and my confidence dwindles until I forget. This is when I need to trust the process. It’s like my starting to ride again. I have only ridden a handful of times since I was pregnant with John. My life was...
by Susan | Apr 12, 2022 | Awareness, Communications
Some days it feels like you go from feeling like you’ve won the gold to falling into a shit pile. Our lives are filled with highs and lows there’s no doubt. As I’m finishing up some work and decluttering my house, I often come across things that remind me of Mike and...
by Susan | Apr 5, 2022 | Awareness
I’m having trouble hanging onto thoughts. It’s as if there are ideas flickering in my mind. A thought comes to me, then it leaves. Sometimes they reappear sometimes they vanish. Is this a part of my personality? I tend to go from project to project. I get overwhelmed...
by Susan | Mar 29, 2022 | Awareness, EGC, Gestalt, Horses
Tonight, I’m in a yurt listening to the snow and wind swirl around outside. The walls are trembling like a body in full tension. I’m at my last Gestalt camp and we’ve witnessed and participated in several body releases. When we hold in our anger or any emotions they...
by Susan | Mar 22, 2022 | Travel
I’m in one of those phases where I’m traveling a lot. The first two weeks of January I went to Kansas City and Lawrence then I had a bit of a break. I went to a conference in Manhattan on February 10th and 11th, and it feels like I’ve been on the road ever since....
by Susan | Mar 15, 2022 | Horses, Lessons From the Horses
Although you can’t tell by the temperatures shedding season is here. That time in horse owners’ lives when we come in with hair all over us. Spring should not be too far off. The temperatures here have been bouncing around like a child with a bouncy ball. The week...
by Susan | Mar 8, 2022 | Awareness, Horses, Lessons From the Horses
My goodness, this is a long one! It’s been one and a half hours since this EEG was scheduled to start. This is the fourth time he’s had one and still we wonder why the seizures keep coming. In the five and a half years I was a caregiver for Mike we had many unanswered...
by Susan | Mar 1, 2022 | Caregiving, EGC, Horses
Is your life driven by chaos? Do you get exhausted by overwhelm? Several years ago, I went into my therapist’s office. It was a little over a year into Mike’s illness. When he asked how I was doing I told him I was terrified and exhausted. However, as I do, I was...
by Susan | Feb 22, 2022 | Gestalt, Grief, Horses
As I sit here with the dog I wonder about the timing of life. Timing can be magical and divine. Or not. There are times when the world seems to be throwing everything at me at once. The catastrophes keep coming one after another. Then it calms down for a moment. I had...
