Trust In Self

As I see so many people post about “the empty chair” for the holidays I sometimes wonder if I’m doing this grieving thing wrong. You see I feel at peace with my loss of Mike. I worry more about my boys than myself. So why would something outside of me cause me to...

Home For Christmas

I hate holidays! A friend posted this on FaceBook last week. I understand all the reasons that holidays can be stressful. We make them that way. There are tensions in families. We think everything must be perfect. And there is never enough time to get things done the...

Fatigue

I used to do my best work after the boys went to bed. Now I’m having trouble staying awake until John gets home from his school activities. I’ve always been a night owl. It felt like I didn’t really wake up until about 6:00 pm. Then I had boys and horses to feed,...

A Reluctant Caregiver

In January of 2013, I was dragged into a role that I never expected. Today I talked with a woman who was researching an article about how living with chronic pain affects a relationship. I had asked her if she was interested in someone who had lived with someone in...

October Awareness

I’ve always felt like breast cancer got too much attention in October. Why do we focus so much on one type of cancer when there are so many out there? Then last November I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It didn’t change my feelings about the month of October. I...

Celebration

In the aftermath of radiation (yes, I’m finished) and the water crisis (it was fixed within a week) I’m celebrating the regrowth of my eyebrows and eyelashes. Radiation went smoothly with some mild side effects the worst one being fatigue. I just don’t have the energy...