I am full of emotions this Monday morning. It’s been a rough weekend. On Saturday I went to the funeral of a dear friend’s mother knowing that he had been in hospice for the last two days. He passed away on Saturday night.
Calvin and Mikey play on the floor. One of the biggest changes this year was the birth of a new grandson.
He had been a pharmacist in California since he had graduated from pharmacy school and had come back to care for his mother in the last years of her life. She was 95 and had lived a full life. He had an underlying condition and had been balancing like a flamingo on one leg.
He was always positive with a smile on his face and a kind word in his big booming voice. A few days before he died, he’d said all his prayers had been answered and he couldn’t be happier that he’d been here for his mother. Like when Mike died, I feel that he felt complete and had nothing left to fight.
No Turning Back card from the Whispers from a Horse’s Heart deck by Touched by a Horse.
Caregiving for a loved one can take a toll on the body and mind. It can be the most depleting experience as well as the most fulfilling. When the loved one you care for dies it is heartbreaking and a relief all at the same time.
There is a period of grief not only for your loved one but for the life you no longer have. There is a period of reinventing yourself. Your future had always included them now they’re gone. What does your future hold?
It’s been almost two-and-one-half years since I lost Mike. I’m still reinventing myself. I discovered through caring for him how to navigate the challenges in our health care system. I discovered that doctors are pushed to the brink and now during this pandemic, they’re pushed even harder. I discovered a passion to help doctors navigate their own lives better. I believe when doctors live their own lives with passion it will help their patients in their healing. When we all show our love and passion everyone heals.
Reinventing myself at a Hope Held by a Horse event. Photo by Ida Ridgeway
As part of reinventing myself, I’m offering Equine Gestalt Coaching to doctors and anyone who’s looking to reinvent themselves. I’m also offering business coaching to anyone who would like to reinvent or start a business after a loss, whether it be the loss of a loved one, a job, your freedom, or a divorce.
If you’d like to learn more about it connect with me here.
This year has been a year of Changes for me. How about you?
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Onward!
