Tonight, I’m in a yurt listening to the snow and wind swirl around outside. The walls are trembling like a body in full tension.
I’m at my last Gestalt camp and we’ve witnessed and participated in several body releases. When we hold in our anger or any emotions they simmer until they explode. They may simmer for a short time or years. It always feels better to get them out.
My anger release was from something that happened to me in junior high. If you’re counting that was over 40 years ago. I’d been holding this anger in that long and when it came out yesterday it was exhausting.
My boundaries had been crossed. I only realized that in 2013. Up until then, I thought it had been normal exploration. It has caused much hiding in my life. It’s caused me to gain weight and made it hard for me to lose it. The weight is my protection. No one will want me if I’m fat. I can hide behind it. It suppresses my motivation to live life to the fullest. It’s like the wind and snow swirling around outside – I don’t want to be in it.
I always went out to see the horses when I was feeling down and I needed someone to listen. I did not see how much they were helping me I only knew that I felt better when I was around them.
It wasn’t until I was in the Equine Gestalt Coaching Method® training that I realized that horses heal us intentionally. They help us in many ways. Since 2018 I have been able to help them share their gifts with the world. Partnering with them and doing Gestalt work to help people heal. In a few days, I will be certified as a Master Equine Gestaltist.
Do you have trauma that needs to be healed? Do you have grief that you would like some help expressing? The horses can help. Connect with me here to find out more.
There are times when Everybody Hurts.
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