The Grief Box

Last week I was talking to a woman who lost her husband almost a year-and-a-half ago. He and his brothers went on a yearly golf outing and this year when the brothers went, they found a golf ball with a logo from where he worked in the rough. They said it was him...

I Speak Ohmart

Fluently! I also speak Socolofsky. The combination of the two is my native tongue. What’s yours? Several weeks ago, a friend was leading a bible study and she said “I speak Swart”. And then went on to explain that her language is based on how the people...

Firsts And Lasts

John’s senior year of high school has been bittersweet. It’s been full of firsts and lasts. Lasts for John. Firsts for all of us without Mike. Mike’s birthday, eight days after he died, was the first such event. It was so fresh, and John had a swim meet on that day so...

Mindfulness

On Monday I shared the cartoon at the right on FaceBook. It recalled much of my teaching in the Equine Gestalt Coaching Method® program. Melisa often said that horses are always in the present moment, always mindful and they help us be. Mindfulness means maintaining a...

Optimism

Even after watching for two hours as they stabilized Mike before taking us to the airport, I was sure everything would be fine. That’s how optimistic I am. I was talking to my BWEL Study coach last week and she asked me if I was optimistic. Well, funny you should ask...

Resilience

– the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties; toughness. I suppose I’ve always been resilient. I don’t remember many difficulties that I had to recover from as a child. One of the first memories I have of trauma is seeing my dog hit by a pickup when I was...

Winter

The last winter I remember being like this was the year I was pregnant with Roderick, he’s 25 years old now. That winter it started snowing in November and we had snow in places until May. I don’t remember it being quite so cold that winter, but it probably was. That...

Procrastination

It’s amazing how I can find something “important” at least in that moment to do when I am resisting doing something that needs to be done. As this blog post is a day late, I must have had some of those things come up to keep me from writing. I’m not very good at...

Spinning Plates

Sometimes I feel like the circus performer who is spinning the plates. My job is to keep all the plates spinning and not let any fall and break. I must keep an eye on all the plates. Hustling from plate to plate as I see them slowing down on the sticks they are...

On Fitting In, Part 2

I recently found this. I wrote it 9/30/17 just before I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It’s very long so I’m breaking it down into two posts. Read the first part here. When I went of college at Kansas State University because I felt the ag community...